Hello Change, My Old Friend

Jan 14th, 2019 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 4 min read

I hate change.  Each change that arises forms a thick rope in my stomach that knots and turns and spins, and when it runs out of room it moves upwards to restrict my breathing. It sets off my anxiety. Plays with my senses. Rips away all confidence and replaces it with fear.  Still, it comes. That beloved laptop with the disc drive will die. That...

No Shame, No Regrets, Just Me: The Unfiltered Review

Jan 7th, 2019 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 8 min read

In late October 2017, I decided that I needed to make some drastic changes in order to begin the process of recovery. It was a difficult process and, on a number of occasions, I almost went back on everything I had done. Reclaimed every string I had cut. But, with the right people in my corner and a rage that bubbled in my stomach every...

Isn’t That Marvellous!

Dec 31st, 2018 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 3 min read

Today, we say a final goodbye to 2018. We express gratitude for all the experiences – good and bad alike – that have taught us something in these past twelve months. We remember the darker days of the year that reminded us problems wouldn’t be called hurdles if there wasn’t a way to get over them. We send up a small prayer for those that...

A Matter of Perspective

Dec 24th, 2018 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 8 min read

Conversation with a friend yesterday turned quickly to how terrible a year 2018 has been.  For me, January began with the ‘perfect week’. I was working reasonable hours, unplugging from technology in the evenings to spend time with friends and family, and even managed to take one day off for a ‘Sunday Reads’ day. Then news of a death in my immediate family arrived and...