Hello Change, My Old Friend

Jan 14th, 2019 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 4 min read

I hate change.  Each change that arises forms a thick rope in my stomach that knots and turns and spins, and when it runs out of room it moves upwards to restrict my breathing. It sets off my anxiety. Plays with my senses. Rips away all confidence and replaces it with fear.  Still, it comes. That beloved laptop with the disc drive will die. That...

No Shame, No Regrets, Just Me: The Unfiltered Review

Jan 7th, 2019 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 8 min read

In late October 2017, I decided that I needed to make some drastic changes in order to begin the process of recovery. It was a difficult process and, on a number of occasions, I almost went back on everything I had done. Reclaimed every string I had cut. But, with the right people in my corner and a rage that bubbled in my stomach every...

Isn’t That Marvellous!

Dec 31st, 2018 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 3 min read

Today, we say a final goodbye to 2018. We express gratitude for all the experiences – good and bad alike – that have taught us something in these past twelve months. We remember the darker days of the year that reminded us problems wouldn’t be called hurdles if there wasn’t a way to get over them. We send up a small prayer for those that...

The Thought That Counts

Dec 10th, 2018 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 3 min read

Among the pile of optician’s appointment reminders, junk mail and bank statements that arrived this week, there was a small brown package. An early Christmas present, I realised. A necklace with a globe and a pair of binoculars hanging from it. And a message: “Your world around your neck, because you’ve opened yourself up to seeing the world outside of your bubble. A reminder that...