Living A Fulfilled Life

Feb 11th, 2019 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 8 min read

These past two weeks have been filled with endless conversations about living life so that it’s fulfilling. I’d like to point out that each of these conversations was with someone new, who had no idea what had been said by the person who came before them. It was purely coincidental. But it was enough to make me think. And that was enough to make me want to...

Wasn’t for Nothing: The Reasons to Stay Alive Review

Feb 4th, 2019 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 6 min read

It was 2am when I finished Reasons to Stay Alive by Matt Haig.  Normally finishing a book this late is a good thing. It gives my subconscious the responsibility of organising my thoughts. Deciding what I liked. What I didn’t. My subconscious has the job of dealing with the emotions that came with reading and accepting the things I know won’t leave me. Reasons to Stay Alive, however,...

Hello Change, My Old Friend

Jan 14th, 2019 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 4 min read

I hate change.  Each change that arises forms a thick rope in my stomach that knots and turns and spins, and when it runs out of room it moves upwards to restrict my breathing. It sets off my anxiety. Plays with my senses. Rips away all confidence and replaces it with fear.  Still, it comes. That beloved laptop with the disc drive will die. That...

No Shame, No Regrets, Just Me: The Unfiltered Review

Jan 7th, 2019 Caffeine Addled Ramblings 8 min read

In late October 2017, I decided that I needed to make some drastic changes in order to begin the process of recovery. It was a difficult process and, on a number of occasions, I almost went back on everything I had done. Reclaimed every string I had cut. But, with the right people in my corner and a rage that bubbled in my stomach every...